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Raheem Sterling has told police he was aware of being racially abused at Stamford Bridge

Sterling was interviewed by members of the Metropolitan Police on Sunday, who travelled north as part of their investigation into an incident during Manchester City's match with Chelsea

And the England star confirmed he had heard racist insults and other foul language as he went to collect a ball for a corner near the Matthew Harding Stand

RAHEEM STERLING STATEMENT  Raheem Sterling posted a statement on Instagram on Sunday morning addressing the incident at Stamford Bridge

It read: 'Good morning. I just want to say I am not normally the person to talk a lot but when I think I need my point to (be) heard I will speak up

'Regarding what was said at the Chelsea game as you can see by my reaction I just had to laugh because I don't expect no better

'Sterling also said that he believed black players and white players were not treated equally by the media, including the Daily Mail and Mail Online, and that he believes this helps 'fuel racism and aggressive behaviour'

  Sterling, who suffered the abuse on his 24th birthday before celebrating with his family on Sunday, appeared to confirm this in an Instagram post earlier in the day

 'Good morning. I just want to say I am not normally the person to talk a lot but when I think I need my point to (be) heard I will speak up,' he said

 'Regarding what was said at the Chelsea game, as you can see by my reaction I just had to laugh because I expect no better

'Sterling also said that he believed black players and white players were not treated equally by the media, including the Daily Mail and Mail Online, and that he believes this helps 'fuel racism and aggressive behaviour

'Whether Sterling saw the perpetrator, however, could be crucial to any criminal prosecution

As he was bending down to pick up the ball, he may not have got a clear view of the fan responsible

Footage began circulating on social media soon after the game that appeared to show a man in a blue top – who is believed to be known to Chelsea and the police – calling Sterling a 'f****** black c***'

 Chelsea have told Manchester City the fan will be permanently banned from Stamford Bridge if firm evidence of racist abuse is provided

There has been speculation the word used may have been 'Manc' and not 'black'.On Sunday Chelsea were conducting their own investigation and are believed to have asked BT Sport, who were covering the game, for all camera angles of the incident

The broadcaster will also check pitch side microphones in case an audio record of the abuse exists

Sterling was spoken to by Manchester City's security personnel before the team departed Stamford Bridge, and his version of events was passed on to Chelsea and the police

It is believed this information sparked the visit to Manchester.The incident has provoked considerable debate with former Manchester United defender Rio Ferdinand calling for a protest, similar to Colin Kaepernick's decision to take the knee during the national anthem at NFL matches

Ferdinand posted: 'Are we going to continue to allow this type of racist behaviour go on? All for kicking a ball

In the NFL the players took to the knee.' He was referencing a movement spearheaded by former quarterback Kaepernick, who began a trend of kneeling in protest against racism in America

Kaepernick famously explained his position: 'I am not going to stand up to show pride in a flag for a country that oppresses black people and people of colour

'Ferdinand's younger brother Anton was racially abused in a match against Chelsea in 2011

Blues captain John Terry was banned for four matches and fined £220,000 after admitting using the word 'black' and swearing at Anton, although he claimed he had only been repeating words he thought the then-QPR defender had accused him of saying

Ferdinand's Instagram post attracted a comment from Wycombe striker Adebayo Akinfenwa, who wrote: 'We have to put a stop to this someway'

Former Arsenal striker Ian Wright admitted he feared a return to the days when black players were targeted by racists in the crowd

Wright said: 'The bad old days are back. Chelsea you have been shamed by this disgusting racist fan

Absolutely no doubt about what he says.' Match of the Day host Gary Lineker branded the incident 'despicable' while BT Sport presenter Jake Humphrey said: 'If indeed it is proved to be racist abuse then I hope it's a lifetime ban

No place for it in this world.'A Chelsea spokesman said: 'We're aware of reports and video footage

We will investigate the matter and take the strongest possible action where necessary

'A Football Association statement read: 'We take all allegations of discrimination extremely seriously and will work with the clubs and the relevant authorities to ensure this matter is dealt with appropriately

'We strongly condemn all forms of discrimination and encourage all fans and participants who believe that they have been the subject of, or witness to, discriminatory abuse to report it through the appropriate channels: The FA, our County FAs or our partners Kick It Out

'The Met Police said: 'We are aware of a video circulating online in which it is claimed racial abuse was allegedly directed at a player at a Chelsea v Manchester City game at Stamford Bridge on Saturday, December 8

'We will review the footage to determine whether any offences have been committed

'No arrests have been made, the Met added.Should any offence have been committed, a life ban could be handed to the supporter responsible

Anti-discrimination charity Kick It Out later issued a statement, which read: 'We've received reports from a variety of sources about an incident of alleged racist abuse at the Chelsea-Manchester City game

'We will forward those to Chelsea and offer our support in their investigation.'Yet another great day of football damaged by prejudice

'Lord Ouseley, founder of Kick it Out, added: 'What happened at Chelsea shows what is still going on in football

'Where is Richard Scudamore? Where is Greg Clarke? Where is Chelsea's chairman [Bruce Buck]? They should have been talking about [the Sterling incident] last night and it has to be dealt with at the top

'We do not have any leadership at the top of the game to speak out, they rely on Kick It Out

We have already made comments about the way Raheem Sterling has been treated differently by the media

The print media often targets, not just black players, but all footballers.'Raheem Sterling has received bad press over the last few years because of his lifestyle, and clearly, there are issues from potential stories adding to prejudice and I have every sympathy for him

'Players know if they are abused in any way they have to tell the referee. It was awful

All players know the referee is in charge and has a duty of care, and the referee can remove those people

It didn't appear to me he told the referee in the first place.'  

For more infomation >> Raheem Sterling tells police he WAS racially abused by Chelsea fan - Duration: 9:38.

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What if Deadpool Was Real? - Duration: 6:47.

Hello Internet - and welcome back to the most inquisitive channel on YouTube - Life's

Biggest Questions - the only place on the world wide web where you can slide open the

fourth wall - question your own sanity before tragically realising that, no, nope - no one's

listening.

What's going on Questioneers - as always I'll be your disembodied floating voice

Jack Finch - as we existentially prod a self-aware 2D immortal superhero - and comically ask

the marvellous question - What If Deadpool Was Real?

Roll the clip.

Now before we tackle this behemoth of a reality bending question, I've got a question for

you - oo, spooky - double-questioning bonanza - it's simple, really though.

Over here at Life's Biggest Questions - we'd like to find out what makes you guys tick,

and what topics and themes you'd like to see covered in our next series of videos.

Why don't you slap down a monkey's paw in the comment section below - be careful

what you wish for - and maybe we'll just read out your best suggestions or witty remarks

in our next video.

Also - we've got to do the old bamboo once again, and you know how it is by now - if

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Deadpool is a great superhero.

Fact.

Now I'm not in the business for bashing on any comic book hero - because they're

a great bunch for the most part - but Deadpool stands apart on an island of individuality

- a fundamentally original and unique incarnation of Stan Lee's Marvel Universe.

Wade Wilson AKA The Merc with a Mouth - had a pretty grim inception, and his origin story

is mired with painful scars, both physically and mentally.

One of those scars is the burden of self awareness - and before we ask What if Deadpool Was Real

- we have to acknowledge the fact that he'd more than likely be aware of us asking this

question.

Which is - woah.

Wade, can you hear me?

Erm - alright buddy, let's keep that to a minimum shall we?

The proto Deadpool - as we know him, and, well - as he knows himself - was birthed in

Canada in the form of Department K - a special weapons development branch of the Canadian

government - and part of the joint U.S Canadian superhuman enhancement project - Weapon X.

He was offered hope after developing 34 inoperable cancerous tumors - and his cancer was arrested

after being implemented with a certain well known mutants healing powers.

I'll give you a guess.

Hold up - Wade, I'm narrating this buddy.

After a disastrous mutant led mission - Wade's healing factor began to destabilize - bringing

his cancer back from remission and causing his trademark fleshy deformities.

Yeah - sorry about that one.

As a result he was rejected from the Weapon X program and sent to the suspiciously named

Hospice - allegedly a government facility for failed superhuman operatives to live out

the remainder of their short lives.

Unbeknownst to the Canadian government though, the Hospice was under the influence of Doctor

Killebrew - yeah, obvious surname is obvious - and his sadistic assistant Ajax.

Long story short, Wade Wilson didn't have the greatest time while under the care of

Doctor Killebrew and Ajax - as you can imagine - and to cut a longer story shorter, while

there Wade and his fellow patients placed bets in a dead - pool - wagering against how

long the each of them would live.

Hence the name - Deadpool.

Yeah, it's funny how those things work out, eh?

This is where our question splits into two distinct sections.

Firstly, Deadpool as a real life figure, and how his self awareness would affect his reality

- and secondly, how our civilization would harness the power of an immortal, self-regenerating

Big Dee Pee - because let's not beat around the bush, if Deadpool was real - he'd be

locked up in a science lab being farmed for organic tissue like a beautiful bald, hairless

- fleshy turkey.

As Rene Descartes once beautifully said - Cogito, ergo sum - I think, therefore I am.

On the basis of that philosophical proposition, this isn't a hypothetical Life's Biggest

Question at all - and as far as Deadpool goes, this is his own reality.

It also gets crazier because, to steal a Shower Thought from reddit user bubonis - If a toy

Deadpool appeared in a Toy Story movie - then he'd be aware that he's a toy in a Toy

Story movie - plus, he would know that his Toy self is a character from another movie

- that's also aware that he's in a movie from a comic book - PLUS - he'd know that

his existence is entirely owned by Disney.

That's like 24 broken walls and holy moly my head hurts.

Also, he'd also be aware that he's the subject of a YouTube video that's referencing

his own reference to those 24 broken walls of reality, so that's like 32 walls - and,

man, my head hurts.

It's in our second section - where Deadpool would truly be a superhero - and lead the

way to a new era of genetic medical breakthroughs.

Well, that's if we could get him to be complicit of course - although I'm sure he'd be

down for lending a helping hand, considering that throughout Deadpool Vol. 3 he's more

than willing to give out blood and tissue samples - even if it does take a few kidnappings.

Sorry, Wade - you're pretty much back to square one.

If Deadpool began his story by being forcefully kept in an experimental scientific facility

- painstakingly being tested on and constantly poked and prodded - then that's ultimately

how he'd end, too.

The power of a regenerative healing factor is just far too - well, powerful - paving

the way to a world where constant organ production is a real possibility.

Need a new heart?

Thanks Mr. Deadpool.

Lost your arm in an amateur chainsaw juggling contest?

Thanks Mr. Deadpool.

It'd be great - really.

What do you think, Wade?

Wait - Wade, where are you going?

I'll take that as a maybe then.

Well, unfortunately folks - you heard the man, that's all we've got time for in

today's video - but before we depart, let's read out some of the funniest stuff you guys

have had to say.

Duy Lai says - Hey LBQ can you answer my question - Who was our first ancestor?

Well Duy Lai, that's a broad question with many different answers, but science's best

bet at the moment is Ardi - a female hominid that lived over 4.4 million years ago - which

is pretty damn old.

Israel Savellano asks - What if everyone farted at the same time?

Well, buddy - let's hope we never find out - but huge props for such an insightful question,

it's that kind of thinking that got us to the Moon.

Cheers for sticking around all the way to the end guys - as always, I've been your

host Jack Finch - you've been watching Life's Biggest Questions - and until next time, you

take it easy.

For more infomation >> What if Deadpool Was Real? - Duration: 6:47.

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What Is "Man School"? - Duration: 10:05.

Also something to keep in mind. Pretty basic, but: L.O.U.I.S.C.K.

Listen, only under intimate situations, caress knob.

[laughter]

Great.

It's been a year since the #MeToo movement made headlines,

and since then, we've realized there are creeps everywhere.

In Hollywood, on the news, in orange crocs...which we could've seen coming...

and now on the Supreme Court – for a second time!

It's caused many to redouble their efforts against sexual assault,

and others to miss the point completely.

It's a very scary time for young men in America.

REPORTER: Who are you scared most for, your sons or your daughters?

Right now, I'd say my sons.

Beyond the trolls though, some men are taking it upon themselves

to right the wrongs exposed by the #MeToo movement.

Meet Matthew Solomon.

I am an empowerment coach, I specialize in relationships and communication.

And I wrote the book "Man School: Relating With Women In The MeToo Era."

Do men need a class on not sending an unsolicited dick pic?

A whole class on that, maybe not, but as part of a class, evidently, because it happens all the time.

"Man School" covers topics like rape culture in movies, toxic masculinity,

and issues that have stumped dudes for millennia such as "Women are not men."

What compelled to write "Man School"?

Women started posting their stories with the hashtag MeToo.

And even knowing the magnitude of it, seeing it there was so humbling and it was so overwhelming.

But there were all these men who had no idea.

And they didn't know how to react and how to respond,

because they would speak up and do the stuff that people do.

Things like harassment, gaslighting, whataboutism, and telling women their experiences don't matter.

Yeah, we've been on the internet.

Do you find it ironic that you're a guy that has to explain all these things

that women have been saying for years?

No.

Why not?

Because I know that men haven't generally been listening to women for years.

So you're like mansplaining sexism which is...

To men.

It's like good mansplaining.

If you're mansplaining to men, maybe it's good.

If a man's mansplaining ... I don't know, I got lost in the space continuum of sexism.

Everything you're saying sounds great, but, like,

how do I know you're not like that guy who wears a feminist t-shirt

but then is secretly kind of a creep.

Yeah. I'm not.

You sure?

Yeah, I'm sure.

Ok Matthew. Let's put your methods to the test with a real Man School.

We gathered seven dudes in a room on a Friday to give them a lesson

in how to be one of the good guys in the MeToo era and also to hear from them.

Welcome to Man School: Unlearning 2000 Years of Patriarchy. Thank you for being here.

I would love to know from each of you what you hope to get out of today.

I realized how sexist I've been, and even not realizing that was a problem.

You know, it's been a continual process for me to learn

how to interact with women especially compared to, I don't know,

my freshman year of college where you get tons of bad advice.

I've been getting close in relationships but once I hit a certain point, I kinda screw it up.

I want to know from you guys, what are your fears?

Men are becoming uncomfortable in their own skin because of what we're seeing.

Is there a concern about where the line is?

What you can or can't do?

You know, there are people who legitimately...

when they interact sexually, like play violence or something like that.

I think that's maybe one thing that some guys are worried about.

There is that fear that, you know, hey

so you get with someone in Palm Springs during a film festival

and you have mad rocking sex because you drank a bunch of Tito's and soda...

Why does this example feel not hypothetical.

That's ok, they're sharing.

Why isn't there like a consent app?

People can sign in and you say yes or no. I think that would be -

I bet there is a consent app. I bet that exists.

But my understanding is that consent has to be a continual thing.

So even if you hit "Yes, I'm down right now,"

you have the right to change your mind,

unless the app is constantly sending you notifications to re-up the consent.

Oh my god. They are pitching an app.

Triggered.

So let me ask you this. What are some of things that you as men do to ensure your safety on a daily basis?

I try to have different passwords for all my different websites.

[laughter]

So in regards to personal safety, women have shared 34 things that they do on a daily basis.

Want me to read these?

Yeah.

34 things...

For their personal safety.

"Walk with our keys grasped between our fingers in case we need to use them as a weapon.

Never leave a drink unattended at a party.

Cross the street when we see men who look like they might be drunk." Definitely do that.

"Make sure we're not the only woman on the subway or bus.

Parking next to a lightpost when it's dark outside.

Decide not to open Facebook messages from unknown men

who could see the messages have been read and become hostile and harassing."

Yes you do become hostile.

It would never occur to me to do 90% of the stuff on that list,

but it's shocking to see you go "yup, yup yup" to everyone you recognized.

There's one I kind of have questions about details on, for example,

if you do happen to be walking behind a woman at night,

is it better to speed up and pass her, slow down, build distance?

I mean, what about bells?

[laughter]

Could also work. We have whistles, you have bells.

It's just a very merry sidewalk. What else can we do to make women feel safe?

Use our male privilege to call out problematic males.

Go out and affirmatively express your support

when there's an issue that's being discussed that's of importance to women.

Some orange-haired knucklehead a couple weeks ago said

it's a rough time for young men in this country.

We need to be held accountable, we need to educate ourselves, we need to educate our young sons.

Her experience is her experience, the thing that she's telling you, that's what happened.

So in other words, a helpful acronym -

B.R.A.H. Believe rape accounts, homie.

[laughter]

H.O.M.I.E: we believe those rape accounts with heart, open-mindedness, intelligence and empathy.

So we're gonna put that into practice.

Yeah let's put that into practice.

We need a volunteer.

Francesca is confiding in you something that happened,

possibly a MeToo moment or a story with someone who's been misbehaving so you get as a man,

get her experience and support her in that moment.

I know this is hard to hear, but your brother just grabbed my butt completely,

like two hands. Full palms.

I'm so sorry to hear that. I mean, I'm surprised to hear that but I'm really, really sorry to hear that.

Because that's not ok, that's not cool. Is there anything I can do?

Just tell him not to touch your friends. Or tell him not to touch anyone.

Obviously. Yeah.

Awesome, how was that?

I'm thinking about my own brothers. I can't imagine that happening with my own brothers

so it was hard for me to put myself in a place where I would relate to that,

but I suppose in life you have to get over that because there are people in your life that are gonna surprise you.

For this next scenario,

Francesca's gonna be playing the man who's saying inappropriate things about women,

so Juan here gets to speak up and be an ally.

Brett is a really good guy like I don't know what all these women are talking about.

I never saw Brett act that way. I've known him for years.

But you're a dude, you're not gonna see it with him.

But I was with him through all of high school, prep school, college.

Obviously she's doing it for the money and for the fame.

Name one of Cosby's accusers. One that got famous.

Um, there's a tennis player.

Time out. Awesome.

So in this scenario we're getting into the debate. Right?

What if instead of arguing the facts, you came from, "what do you suppose it was like for her?"

Interesting, so I'm supposed to get him to empathize with the victim.

Try that.

OK, Cool.

How about you have evidence of the rape before you go around accusing a bunch of men...

Am I really friends with this dude?

[laughter]

Dude what are you talking about? You've known me forever! It's Chad.

Three hours later and these males are finally ready to be released back into the wild.

You guys made it, you've done Man School! Give yourselves a round of applause.

And while there are no cookies for doing the right thing in real life,

there are in Man School. And prizes.

I learned about B.R.A.H. Believe rape accounts, homie ...

I need to be more sympathetic in conversation and ask more questions,

I think are the big two things to take away.

You don't really get too many opportunities to see people open up

and actually express what their innermost thoughts and feelings are.

Especially men. So that was really refreshing for me.

What should women understand about men in the Metoo era?

That men are extremely sensitive.

You know we have feelings and emotions that we're not really taught that we're allowed to have those,

and then we sure as heck can't express those.

Do you think there should be a Man School?

Absolutely. I think there should be a Man School, a teen school.

Relationships and communication should be taught as part of curriculum.

So will men ever be able to unlearn patriarchy?

Maybe not after one class, but hey, the first step is showing up.

For more infomation >> What Is "Man School"? - Duration: 10:05.

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'What was your journey to becoming hep C free?' - Duration: 1:43.

My name is Glen. I'm a Gadigal man from the Eora nation.

I was diagnosed with hep C when I was in prison.

I was told that basically there was nothing I could do about it.

I contracted hep C from injecting drugs in 1998.

I wasn't told anything about the virus. I wasn't given any treatment options.

I've definitely felt judgement from healthcare workers.

I felt shame because of the way I contracted it.

I always felt like I was doomed.

When I disclosed my diagnosis to some friends they were a bit scared

and so I think it's around educating.

When people know more they're more understanding.

I was always concerned about infecting somebody else.

It was constant, constant worry.

And now I don't have that worry anymore.

The treatment was really easy to get on. I had no side effects. It was amazing.

Now that the GPs can prescribe it's one tablet a day for 12 weeks and you can get rid of the virus.

When I was cured I felt I'd lost something. I'd been carrying it around for so long.

And now I can just get on with living my life.

I feel like I matter now. I'm free from substance abuse. I've got heaps more energy.

I'm just enjoying my life now.

Liver health is important. Just go and get tested.

If you get a positive result there is a cure and you can beat the virus.

For more infomation >> 'What was your journey to becoming hep C free?' - Duration: 1:43.

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WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY ARM AND LEG (EMG) - Duration: 16:20.

make sure you don't drink a lot today so that we don't get the Popo coming after

us what planet are you from

good morning as tired as we thought I was the end of last vlog I'm even more

tired now I haven't slept but maybe 10 minutes since I closed the last vlog I tried to

go to sleep well I went to bed but going to bed is not the same thing as sleeping I

went to bed and then I just laid there and then I heard her get up so then I

laid there some more and I got up and so now my voice sounds disgusting because I

also think I'm getting a cold so yeah and now we are headed off to San

Francisco yesterday we thought we had up at 3 o'clock in the morning we did not

have to get up to a 4 because the appointment is two hours later than we

thought as soon as you guys 4 hours and 20 minutes to get that we're gonna get

there just some time but we stopped to check in an hour ahead of time so onward

like literally just on and we stopped to get gas in what's it called tarrlok

no yeah Turlock okay well bye cuz I'm tired so maybe I will try to

sleep but I probably won't I'm awake again

I slept for at least yeah and it's raining and then

our fast-track thing which is the thing that beats all the time when we're

driving because it's like I don't know it what's the thing you do

like lets you get past all the traffic basically it's broken so we don't know

if it needs new battery or what and how we can get over the bridge okay

the bridge is always like really really bad meet you

yeah so we are going we're gonna get there early because

drove fast when I was sleeping but now we're not going to get there because

we're going to have to go through the regular lines on the bridge unless we

pull off and Walnut Creek in to get a battery board if that's the problem but

I don't think it is I don't think that thing has batteries in it yeah my lips

look really drew okay well I'll do fast food at the

fridge if we can going fast on the ridge oh my gosh I just not holding that

custard face okay so my dad called nail and he called customer service and since

it's the day before a holiday they're not open and so he's gonna check on the

computer to see if the thing is even on which I don't see why it wouldn't be on

since traffic today is supposed to be four times what it normally is

hopefully they there when they say it coming out of the city they mean by like

the whole day four times as much because during the middle of the day there's

usually nobody leaving the city so maybe maybe

good look well he really seemed on the other side there's already cards coming

out kind of a lot of them just about as many of us doing in though annyeong

but probably not it's probably gonna be like when we went when we went one block

in a whole hour that one day

but that's probably what's gonna happen to us again today so

make sure you don't drink a lot today

look it's not even busy because everybody's leaving the ward only foods

coming in well and all these other people but still

and we got we're gonna pay cash to go over the bridge again this time

$86 I was guest that

so that we don't get the Popo coming after us but we might still go in the

fast track lane on the way home because

we don't want to be taking forever to get home

so I'm gonna find the chapstick in the bar

I know what have some and then he will be on the bridge in

just a moment

Oh

we're in what is called neuromuscular something it's six a if that means

anything do you and we're watching the rain and I got

shorter but I did gain about three pounds on a vacation shout it to that

salt I ate too many pickles to be an accurate weight so it won't see it when

we get back home probably mm-hmm but I'll probably eat a bunch of salt

tomorrow Thanksgiving but anyways here we are I

don't know how we're like an hour early or something more than that so I don't

know if we're just away here for an hour please gonna come in here right right

the raid and I you fitted sleeve did it seem like out I mean and all the rain

and there's a lot of people and I'm getting my flu shot today so I'm waiting

and Grumpa Soros is here and she just destroyed her tan around here you

chewing can you hear me true cuz I can hear you chewing grunt do you want to

say anything

come on game I'll see you later so we're resting in the car for a while

till the actual AMG I guess I had it backwards or something we meet with the

doctor first and then we do the mg the Dylan's resting over there see she's

pretty tired in this nice car look at the ring you guys look at the ring this

is California but not California weather this is like yeah a million years and

then no but look at my hair it's all my stuff because we were like in the deluge

and I didn't have an umbrella so we thought one associated wasn't in the

rain because look at her coat no coat just little shirt that says that's

nepeta screaming it's the Cheshire Cat yeah anyways but it's pretty cool with

all the rain right here you look at and I'm drinking coffee and resting

anyways I'll do some more vlogging after the mg

I'll try to sneak some pictures pretty sure not supposed to take pictures but

oil we started out the day in the dark and it is now like 13 hours later and

we're back in the dark so what that EMG is used in take

pictures I don't even know what it looks like when I'm getting that done so it's

disgust they'll never know guys we're not gonna do another one those again

probably ever and

I have been sleeping after I was crying for probably an hour do right yeah

and

would you like to explain

what

was determined by doing this that I still think was quite less because

the only we can do anything about it it's your brains reaction to trauma like

like post-traumatic stress disorder so it can be from the constant pain from

EDS and other things but her brain is stopping the functioning of the arms and

the leg or arm in the leg so it's like you have to be connect your brain with

your muscles to continue because she could do it like for a second and that's

it not like continued motion so it's like

her brain thinks that it's bad and stops if that makes sense

so physical therapy so he claims that I should get better

within a few weeks of intense physical therapy

well he said within one session we should see a great improvement and I

looked at him like what planet are you from because we've been doing physical

therapy for the entire time that this is been happening and it's just getting

worse so at what point do we call it back and tell them that things are

getting things are just getting worse I don't know and he wants me to see

another psychologist but that ain't happening

some things were said by the last two that have caused me to never go back to

another one in short the first one told me that if I

didn't want these things to be happening to me they wouldn't so it's because I

want them to happen yeah I want my body and being constantly that I want to not

to be able to walk or use my arm or think correctly yeah that's it and then

the other one not gonna get into too much detail on this one cuz it's

probably not a thing that should be shared on the internet but here we are

and a very very very long story short I told him I wished I was dead and he said

understandable not really the type of response you should give a person

especially when you're a doctor or a whatever he is I'm not really sure but

anyways so we went all this like weird to tell us do we need to do physical

therapy

so

well that there is a fancy-pants term for it

right

what's that Jordan is the my chance to see me I find me functional something

and basically well the other name for it is conversion disorder which is the

exact diagnosis if that the first psychologist told me was my fault for

wanting it tap

so

which just say oh I've been a little free after being told that that was the

conclusion of today because

you don't really like to go around thinking that it's

your fault or that somehow your body or brain or

whatever this picked up I wonder if I should just keep going straight what he

is telling you hello

yes telling it or is wanting I don't know when I was where I was

going with my heart dance anymore by a--basically

I'm gonna do more puzzle therapy luckily there was no like damage to the nerves

or whatever and I don't know how many of each axis the muscles but apparently

there's nothing wrong with the most either

but it's the connection or the signal from my brain going to you the

Thank You the muscle that is the problem and I took I have

two recently discovered that if I hyper flex my neck that the problem is about

85% fixed to which he said what do you say about

that

something to the effect that doesn't make any sense why that would be

happening and

that pretty much that is the fact that if I do that and it gets better that's

in all of my head thanks for much

on that happy note

we are headed home now and

I'll close it out here and then if the fam is still awake when we get home I

may say hi to them or it may not so anyway bye thanks for watching bye

bye it's taboo we're home okay don't cry

tell them bye nothing say bye I guess that's what doggie buy is