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Hi guys and welcome back to a

new video button ago on my vlogging channel actually and

my vlogging channel is getting changed to

my

Normal account. I got ideally I got rid of my main account. I got rid of that actually

so today I'm talking about something really serious and I

Know some people say little ways themed. You should be doing this. Oh

You should making this video for

Many reasons but I need to let it I need to get it out there

Of what's been happening recently and why I've been quitting my pins up a new dream and stuff and having like master break

So I want to tell you guys

What actually has been happening recently for a couple of weeks? I've been having

suicidal thoughts and

Not me doing the suicide not me to kill myself

actually, it's just having the faults now, you might be thinking like

Will you actually do it

No, I won't and it's tough what I've been thinking about quite a while as of what happened last year

Some people are new to this but and you don't actually know my dad did pass away last year M of bowel cancer

last

Halloween and

he's just come to me for some reason that I

I don't know one and people ask me why I've been having these thoughts what I actually don't know why

It's just because of all I finish it and some days I wake up and some days

I don't having this but some days I will wake up and just feeling like what is the point in living no more now a

Lot of people are you know about this and it's not just so I'm going out with now on no one else

She knows I mostly get bombarded with like comments off and that I don't even a lot of people actually know

About this and I just wanted to let some of you you guys know about it now

I'm going to put the comments on this disabled and for

Many reasons why because I want people comments on this thing say no it's fake

He's trying to get attention a lot. If I was getting attention, I won't beat I won't ask

Why would I tell you school about it? Cause why would I be getting bereavement support? I'm just saying but

I've been having suicide for quite some time now. I wanna get rid of him

it's hard to get rid of something which to we which you think about every day when you wake up you think about

it and I

Would have to say it's been a very very last year was a hard year for me

And this year part of it has been a hard year for me

Because of what I think what's been happening in store and

A lot of you people saying you're the strongest person. I know

You have to be strong in a way. You can't just fail. You can't just give up. I'm not giving up my dad

I am probably being strong enough do not

ever do anything

stupid cuz

if I was he would think I

Mean what you're doing and I know he's probably looking down. I'm trying to unleash on scrying

I know he's by looking doesn't mean done up there thinking like

Don't do it leave I

Don't

It's like I don't want to do it he's just

Havin, the fault of actually doing it like oh my god, my wife's crying. I don't wanna wanna do it

I don't want to wreck stuff like with family and friends and that lot and

I

Don't know how I'm gonna think it up

I like I'm thank you ever so much for everyone who's like he supported me with this and

I'm grateful for what?

You guys have been doing and just like checking up amazing. I'm alright, I'm getting better. I'm

Feeling much better, but I just I just need to let you guys know this

so you just keep asking me like why taking breaks on YouTube for you'll understand why now and

It's it's just I don't want to wait but

If my dad was here right now everything Kathleen what the hell you thinking but for most

I'm Nick Charlotte quiet. I don't quite know a youtube video. I have quite before on a YouTube video, but I

Just kind of find you all enough for what you guys who gave me

To help me get through all this and I can't thank you and also thank you so much guys through it and

Yes, basically an emotional as he died three about that I don't have the force as much now

I used to have like three times a day. That's how buddy used to be plays like once a week now

So it's it's good phase enough. I still have it. But if you guys do want to message me regarding this. Oh

You can help me or anything you you can't and you can

My Twitter my social medias are down below or you could just email me privately. My email just will be down below

if there's any ways you can help me or

You're going through it now

And I could help you assume you already get on the same level because I'm getting support by a charity

I never thought I could quite a strike called true speed having a team. I obviously have heard it

I'll leave a link down to the website if you if you are struggling with

Suicidal and stuff

But if you do enter too many cam

To be down below my team or we're done below just B's link will be down below to their website if you want to contact

them and I really could actually

Helping me get through it all and that is why

I'm making three or four to make it let you guys know that

Because I have to get out. I know some people be thinking Liam. You don't want to let everyone know about it

I get that but it's

My my life my thoughts

my voice and if I want to let out

I will let out and then when most of my school note by now and I get that and

To everyone who actually helped me. Thank you ever so much for it

So yeah, what a video you want to for me happy

annoying you don't think I'd come up with that, but I just need to let you guys know because

it's

something which

most common people

most when people have onions is

It's worrying and when I told I don't know what toll first but when I told someone birth

Is really where we went someone tell it to you

Could you don't know what the art shouldn't do and I totally get that but yeah

The end of the video now, I'm not gonna tell you more but if you do one again touch your mates my links

Are we done without just be a website up down below and my email down below so he wouldn't do it

We can't I will obviously about to you guys when I can

So yeah, I think for watching this video, please

like and subscribe

You can't come be down there put a comment to say warm its video

Just for obviously. I don't want spamming on it. So yeah, I guess much. Take care. Bye bye

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I NEED YOUR HELP (read the description) - Duration: 0:51.

Hello again

I know I have a long time in which I do not present myself at least with my voice

I will make a kind of blogs with stickers

I will not make blogs in camera, but will show images drawn by Bensler

My friend who will have seen that suddenly comments some videos on the channel

Well, what I'm going to do, I need to ask you, what would you like me to talk about?

I have no idea how to start, so the first video will be your decision

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I Need Your Help... - Duration: 7:44.

it's safe to say that yesterday when I tried to film this video it went a

little bit differently

*incoherent crying*

yesterday I had a complete and total mental breakdown let's talk about it so

from the background of my video right now you might think that I live in a

really nice house I actually don't I don't live in a very nice house my house

is actually caving in from the outside it's broken broken broken broken and

yesterday I had enough I had enough of this house

I wanted to just sell it and move it's harder than it sounds and I ranted to a

camera for 20 minutes bawling my eyes out but you don't need to see that I

scheduled uploaded it and then I deleted it because I decided to wait and compose

myself to make this video so I don't have the best living situation right now

and I don't really want to go into detail about it besides the fact that

like this house is not good to be living in

there's mold there's leaky ceiling there's bugs I shouldn't be living here

but like I can't afford to move anywhere else that I'm not gonna go any deeper

into that this video is just to come on here and tell you guys that I have a

patreon page now I actually had one for a super long time but I just

revamped it I gave it all new perks and a couple of you guys have already become

a patreon so thank you guys so much if you guys have noticed there's a little

bit bottom of my description where I put all my patrons there are well there's

two people right now but I have three patrons but I think one of them has

their like things that I'm private so I can't see their name so that's like a

thing yay patreon you don't know what patreon is

basically a website where you can donate or pledge a certain amount of money per

month to your favorite creators and I

and I ooooh *takes selfie*

and Iactually updated my perks and I think that they are super cute so I'm

gonna read a little bit of them to you right now if you pledge one dollar or

more per month I will follow you on any social media and you will have access to

secret posts that I post on patreon that you can't see anywhere else if you

donate five dollars or more per month you will have access to all the previous

things from the previous donation tier as well as access to my private

livestream that I will be doing once that tier has more than ten people in it

because there's no point in live streaming for like one person we might

as well just Skype so I will be doing a patreon patron livestream every month

once that tier has more people in it so donate to that tier you'll get to speak

with me one-on-one once a month I don't really do lives anymore because they

make me feel like I'm being watched 24/7 but I think it'll be super fun if you

donate $10 per month you'll have all the previous perks your name in the

description of all of my videos I actually just do this for everyone so

you don't even need to do the ten dollar perk to get that as well as a mention in

the end of one of my videos probably a tea and chat if you donate $25 or more per

month you will have all their previous prices as well as a handwritten letter

mailed to you complete with a cute drawing by me so obviously you'll have

to give me your address when you do this perk if you don't want to give me your

address or for some reason you can't receive mail just message me and we can

come up with something else maybe I can send you a cute email or something like

that um or I can mail it to a friends house I don't know

but yes a cute little hand-drawn cute stationery letter by me yay if you

donate $50.00 dollars every month all that previous stuff happens so you get a

letter you're gonna mention in my video you can come to my live streams I will

send you an item of clothing from my closet yes so y'all give me your address

and your preferred size range like small medium medium large large extra large or

like above and I will literally mail you a piece of clothing from my closet it

could be a bag it can be a shirt it could be shoes it can be literally

anything it'll probably something that you've

seen in a whole video on my channel before so if you're in similar size

range to me I even have clothes that are too small to me I've clothes that are

too big for me i have all size rages just i just buy clothes in all sizes so yeah

that's probably one of the most exciting ones oh and if you're international I

cannot send you clothes because it'll cost way too much money to ship but I

will send you something small like a necklace or a ring or something like

that and my last perk is called are you okay because it's a hard video month

which includes all the previous perks as well as I will literally get your face

printed on a t-shirt and I will wear it in an Instagram photo

and a YouTube video like it'll just be like your face right here I don't I

don't know where I came up with this honestly love the idea that I could

literally have a patron closet just full of people's shirts oh and I also give a

customized Instagram shout-out to anyone who becomes patreon shout out to Lexi

Phillips and Dev Laney you are currently in my shout out folder whoo

of course I don't want any of you guys to feel obligated to donate to me on

patreon but I just really if I didn't mentioned this at the beginning of this video I'm

trying to move and I haven't been totally open with like how like horrible

my life has been recently and where I'm living in Arizona it's monsoon season

and usually throughout the rest of the year it's fine

like yeah I can deal with my ceiling leaking twice a month whenever it rains

but now that it's raining every day I cannot walk around my house without

shoes on no matter how many buckets I put down it's like the second I figure

out where all the leaks are another one pops up mmm fun I have exclaimed my

friends and I feel like I'm living outside with the current wasp

infestation in my house too I can't really spray that much bug spray around

to get rid of them because I do have two dogs and wasps need like intense bug

spray and like it's just not a good situation this house cannot be livable

much longer and I really need to move and any sort of support from you guys

would be so amazing like you don't know how freaking blessed I would feel even

if like a couple of you guys did like the $1 or $5 a month donation like it

would just mean the world to me but yeah I understand if you guys cannot

donate of course I'll just put the link in the description go check it out if

you can only do it one time that would still even just be amazing cuz any penny

helps I'm really just trying to get enough money for my like move in costs

like first and last month's rent to get me in the door other than that like

moving is no big deal but it's that big lump sum and if you guys follow my

channel you'd know that I had that situation last year where my roommate

kicked me out and like it cost me $5,000 and like

my family's still trying to recover from that and it's just it's a big mess if

you want to watch that story time I'll link it up in the I it's honestly a big

mess but yep I made a patreon and do with that what you will I don't really

expect many people to donate because I'm such like a small youtuber but I saw a

youtuber called pixielocks made one and she has like a thousand dollars pledged to

her each month and like I don't even need a quarter of that for this to make

a huge difference in my life and I'm like she must be so grateful because

that's like amazingly I can't even believe that that's the thing but yeah

that is it for this video and I hope you enjoyed it

if you did please be sure to give this video a thumbs up and if this is your first time

seeing on of my video be subscribe by clicking the subscribe button because

remember even if you can't donate to patreon subscribing does so much good it

brings more revenue into my channel for you watching my videos and yeah

so thanks for watching and I will see you guys in my next video guys *cute slap*

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WATCH: Post Malone Post-Landing Interview, "I Need a Beer" | Heavy.com - Duration: 2:07.

WATCH: Post Malone Post-Landing Interview, "I Need a Beer" | Heavy.com

Post Malone FaceTimed TMZ immediately following the safe landing of his flight.

Immediately following the safe landing of his flight, Post Malone FaceTimed with TMZ to talk about the crazy experience.

Post, who told TMZ that he "hates flying in general," had to make an emergency landing after his plane (which was originally set to fly to London) blew two tires on takeoff, thus necessitating an emergency landing.

To TMZ, Malone said, "I hate flying in general, I don't even know what to say, man.

I'm shook.".

When he was asked about the pilots, Malone said that they were definitely the ones who "saved the day.

"We're here on earth…I need a beer and I need some wine.

Later, Post tweeted, "i landed guys.

thank you for your prayers.

can't believe how many people wished death on me on this website.

f*ck you. but not today".